Do I subconsciously choose the impossible option because deep down I’m afraid of having a real relationship?
*ponders* …hmm…. YES! …The ONLY relationship I’ve actually fully been IN (and I mean that in the sense of having at one time been called a girfriend and have, myself, refered to them as my boyfriend) was with someone who I knew was leaving the country in 6 months. Knowing that they were eventually going to leave was the the reason I allowed myself to commit (“commit”!! bahahahaha, as if you could really call it that).
Maybe aiming for the impossible is the only way to find someone really worth it…
*sigh*
Nah…I think SHE’s right.
Maybe. I doubt it, though.
Someone who is really worth it would not make it “impossible” to be with them.
Well that’s something to ponder….
Do I subconsciously choose the impossible option because deep down I’m afraid of having a real relationship?
*ponders* …hmm…. YES! …The ONLY relationship I’ve actually fully been IN (and I mean that in the sense of having at one time been called a girfriend and have, myself, refered to them as my boyfriend) was with someone who I knew was leaving the country in 6 months. Knowing that they were eventually going to leave was the the reason I allowed myself to commit (“commit”!! bahahahaha, as if you could really call it that).
Maybe aiming for the impossible is the only way to find someone really worth it…
*sigh*